I am numb .
I am calm.
I am normal outside,
while a cold waves roaring inside me.
I said "Fuck this!"
I said " i don't care anymore " .
But
I am lying.
I care.
I care too much.
I care too much that i am filled with regret.
I am guilty.
I am sad.
I am so sad.
I want to cry so bad .
so bad .
So bad.
I WANT TO CRY.
I WANT TO SCREAM.
I AM IN PAIN .
I WANT PEOPLE TO SEE I AM NOT OKAY.
I WANT PEOPLE TO SEE I DON'T WANT TO BE NORMAL.
I DON'T WANT TO SMILE .
I DON'T WANT TO...
©Ragasree
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