I'm dark inside, but nobody knows.
I can put on a good act, I can put on a show.
Let's laugh and have a good day, tomorrow I will go back to my old ways.
I'm used to being alone, day in and day out, this is how I am.
The darkness doesn't scare me, but what does scare me is when I don't have a plan.
When everything is side tracked and I'm lost, I get so damn scared.
I'm running on thin ice and nothing seems clear.
That is when my dark side comes out, that is when you will see my other side.
It's not a good plan, its something I fear for, its a scarey ride.
I hold my breath tight when the voices start appearing.
When I lose control, I run until my body stops me, that's what I fear.
On a good day I feel numb inside, but at least I can't hurt anyone.
I would rather not feel pain, I know its not fun, but at least everyone is OK including me.
Hey, at least I'm not insane!
I'm done, I'm numb, but I'm totally sane.
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