I really don't know how to express my love to you anymore, You make it hard with your disbelief in which I HATE. As bitter as certain things could seem you turn my regrets into your favourite stories and it aches my heart to know that someone I love still believes in all the bitterness I once did. If I could turn around time , I'd erase those bad memories but maybe I wouldn't have seen that the Love I have for you is a GIFT. If only you could understand that my uttered words mean the most because of certain things I told you about! You told me that you forgave ,me but to be honest you didn't . Is like that week, that day is repeating and all you meditate on is me "cheating" well, I guess you're right!
I CHEATED! Not for lust, not for love but I cheated on you with me, Arranging my dreams, starting my goals which will One day be our reality! Yes I cheated! I did it! and most days I was unhappy..... Because of my past, I developed strength. I'm no longer a slave to fear because I believe! Yes I cheated! Because I wanted you to see a better me through the me that you gave up on. Yes I lied! But you're always the one !Yes I cheated , On my focus during my past! But will you ever forgive my presence so that you could see my present so you could believe in the future that's within me? Yes I cheated! Although "God so love the world that he gave his only begotten son"..... I cheated! Because there's excess love in me for you! But there's some misunderstanding that you planted in your brain of me and until you erase your mind your words will forever poison my life and your disbelief. Yes I cheated! To make you happy ! I turned my depression into happiness which gave me strength! Yes I was weak but I cheated so that you could get a better me.
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