I crave you
I feel you everywhere and beg for the touch I imagine to be real
It has been five years since you took a chunk of my heart with you to heaven, and yet I still have you memorized in my soul
you are embedded in my core like a vital organ I can't live without
I went to a baseball game today and imagined what it would be like to have you with me
I thought of you standing behind me with your hands on either side of my torso
I envisioned your reactions to every inning and your comfortable posture against my body
I fell in love with you the first time I laid eyes on you and knew that I would belong to you forever
I never imagined that your forever would end in 2019
I graduated college and saw you as the doctor you planned to be
You in your cap and gown and our future with a house and children
We never got the chance, and now I am learning a new version of contentment
Nothing will ever feel whole without you in my forever, but I still move on
If heaven is a place, I hope to be there with you one day
I hope you don't hold my progress in life against me
I pray that you embrace me for the person I am now and love me for the person I was and the person I grew into
I will never have a day pass where you do not hold a constant thought in my mind
I want your kiss, hug, and beautiful smile always
I love you
I'll see you when my forever ends
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