I deserve to bleed

I wanna rip out my
intestines
Throw them in the sea
I wanna raise the
money to invest in
plastic surgery
I wanna cover myself
head to toe in super
sexy scars
'cuz I mean aren't you
supposed to burn if
you're a star
I want to be torn apart
excruciatingly
I punish my body 'cuz
it's not good enough
for me
The scary thoughts are
spreading like a weed
The thoughts that say
that I deserve to bleed
I wanna take a knife
and draw a line across
my chest
I wanna feel much better
than I do
when I am at my best
I wanna fly away from my
own skin and find a
better place
I wanna slash across
what used to be
my face
I want to be torn apart
excruciatingly
I punish my body 'cuz
it's not good enough
for me
The scary thoughts are
spreading like a weed
~AUH :)
©ausedhuman