I cannot make sense of what I'm feeling, I have no words to express these emotions. Is it confusion? Is it pain? Is it denial? Or is it just the fog in my brain?
I am so clueless, I don't know where to start, to come to this resolution yet here I am still falling apart. I feel so alone, there's no one who understands this weight on my heart and this pain in my chest. This day must be a dream, or my worst nightmare to say the least...please, somebody, anybody wake me up I feel like I could scream! I have dreaded this day, although I have expected it's outcome. This rollercoaster that I am on is far from its end, I don't know what I am feeling, this numbness - I can no longer pretend.
I cannot make sense of what I'm feeling, I cannot explain why...no word comes to mind to express these emotions no matter how hard I try.
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