I don't wonder anything about you. why do you want me to care?
you never did.
what I want for you.is to seek help. for drugs and alcohol,your drinking and the other stuff. your demons as you like to call them. the stuff that doesn't let you sleep. your ptsd. you wanting to hurt people for no reason
help you find peace. realize when you make mistakes and not blame others. to learn to live with your mental illness. right now you shouldn't be so consumed with love interest. how can you love? you have none. not for yourself or humanity.
do you really want to get better?
of the answer is yes. there are ways.
the same strength and manipulation it took you to stalk and half it should also be the same incentive to want to get better. for yourself. instead of being angry and crying over who did what, focus on getting better. Don't u want to get better? why are you afraid to get help? amenity is key. there are ways.
search for them. there is help out there.
©sasha01
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