Happiness is an illusion
A side effect of all the pills
There's no effective solution
I should start writing my will
It's not fair
l do care
But showing my feelings is really rare
In the middle of nightmares and reality
Is this really me?
"There's more to me then my disability"
Tell that to the razor, the one that made me bleed
Everyone thinks I'm okay
16 weeks clean today
And while you scream hurray
The voices are yelling at me
Telling me to break that streak
Calling me a psycho freak
No money for therapy
Nobody can help me
Can't you see i'm not living, Im surviving
I dont sleep I spend the whole night crying
I'm sick of trying.
I feel like dying.
©maddfish
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