Yesterday, I was sober,
Shouting on others,
Screaming from heart,
No one listens to me,
no chance they'll understand me,
and help, I can't think about it
Everybody is busy
and I am alone in my own world of grief
I want to tell them the pain inside my heart,
But I know they'll not understand and make fun of my tears,
So I just put my hands on my mouth, to stop the words that want to come out of my mouth,😔
They give their own theories,
about my grief,
But no one listen me,
No one understand me ,
They say it's not a big deal,
And leave me in my own world of grief,
See the world through my eyes
Then you'll know "what it is??? "
My anger , my frustration wants to come out on the people around me ,
But I can't do that
because ,
they will say I have gone mad,
It hurts the most ,
when people you like the most,
Say ,you are the worst😔😔😔
So I just ran from there .
To a place , where I am alone,
I just cried from my heart,
without saying any word 🤫
I started talking to my loneliness,
Hey, lovely loneliness,
I am scared of the crowd,
that I left 😨.
Will you listen the words I'll say???
and tell me how's my day😐
I said everything that I want to tell,
without any fear ,without any tears.
I sat there,
knees close to my chin ,
eyes closed &started thinking,
about my life that is full of lies
A small , but beautiful conversation started in my mind,
I told many things, and listened many
understand many things & adviced many
Suddenly a smile appeared on my face☺️.
I felt great,I don't know how???
But I have solved every problem that have been delayed,
I've solved my own problems
And then I realised,
the path I had chosen was wrong ,
to get relief from my pain ,
I have to take a u turn,
the previous path took me to a place,
where people behind the masks are just actors,
But the new path ,
took me to a place ,
where I can see myself,
I found myself..............................................
©sillypoet
S