How do I get over the pain?
How do I defeat the monster?
This unexplainable torture,
This unseen battle,
This demon tormenting me,
Tell me how do I win?
The scars,
The pain,
The marks on my body,
The me trapped inside,
The unheard screams,
Come on tell me,
How do I win?
I forgot how to smile,
And got tired of the act,
Do you wanna know the truth?
Can you even handle it,
Well here.
I'm a looser,
I lost,
I give up,
The monster took over,
It lives in me,
Reminding me of my faults.
Take a look at my arm,
The cuts,
They are healing,
But the urge to cut,
It's driving me nuts,
I have fought,
And,
I just lost.
The sadness in me,
Darkness is overcoming,
The last joy left,
The little hope lost,
I'm beyond salvation,
No one can save me.
This is my path,
Depression,
Anxiety,
Overthinking,
Isomnia,
I'm doomed.
I still get the flashes,
That fateful day,
He took advantage of me,
That very day
My innocence gone
I was just twelve
When I was first raped
A young naive girl
Didn't know what was happening
I cried and begged
But he didn't listen
The flashes continue,
To my second rapist,
Third, forth and finally the fifth one,
I don't wanna go into details,
But just know I went through
Hell and I'm tired of the
Monsters always reminding me
So
Someone lend me a gun,
I'm tired.
Well done monsters,
You win.
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
©mara_pain
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