With tears in my eyes
Wondering what crime I did
Why I'm I treated like a nobody
Why so much bile
I gave life another shot
Thought that this time things would change
Strangely nothing of that sort happened
Dreams of a happy ever after
Dreams of my smiling face
Only to wake up and realize I was in a nightmare
How did I get here
How did I mess my life like this
I was perfectly fine
Atleast I thought so
Now I'm lost in my self
Suicide is the only option
How I wish I did it earlier
How I wish my attempts never failed
How I wish I was dead
It's too much for me
It's killing me slowly
It's finishing me everyday
God I can't do this anymore
I'm tired of this life
I have no one to run to
No comfort zone
No one by my side
No where to hide
Damn I'm drowning with stones tied to my feet
I'm giving up on everything now
I tried I really tried but I guess it wasn't enough
I gave my all and now I'm drained
There's no more strength left in me
Is it really okay to not be okay
When you can't feel your own heart beat
When it's difficult to wake up in the morning
When you have difficulties in breathing
When your mind won't stop tormenting you
And the only thing that makes sense is a blade
I hate my life
Yes I said it, I really do
Problems never end
Tears never dry
Why me?
My body is slowly shutting down
My brain deleted all the happy moments I've ever had
And I'm left with nothing but pain
I GIVE UP
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
©mara_pain
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