I am here
hating myself for breaking the rules;
disgusted that I fell for you.
First time I saw you I couldn’t believe my eyes, could it be true? Could I finally have found that which I had searched all my life for? Could she be the one? So many questions so little answers. I wont lie I was scared, doubtful, unnerved. I was out of my element, out of my shell and yet I couldn’t care less. I opened up and let you in, I gave you my heart and what did you do?
You treated me like a piece of shit
My heart is broken
And the pain inside is bigger than anything else
But because of you, I cant live anymore
I am torn into pieces
I cant stand it anymore
I hate myself for loving you
I hate me so much
You ruined my past and cursed my present.
You turned the dreams I dreamt as nightmares and thoughts so painful.
You departed from my life and I wish that our meeting never happened.
My dear one I realize now
I was the cause of pain to my dear ones and strained myself to be with you
My parents and friends warned me about you but i didn't listen.
Blinded by stupid love they say.
For you, I wrote so many poems.
Poems which had become birds in light,
and that became stars in the night.
Songs that became flowers in the day,
but you say that they're a fool's compositions
I lost my companions and hardly cared when all my friendships were discarded.
Now you are back saying you are pregnant for me after breaking my heart and making me hang on to hopes and dreams, afraid of losing everything.
I fell for another better than you and your words just left me to future confusion.
I hate myself for ever loving you.
©uncle_sam
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