I hate the number 2
cause it's what I've always been
since middle school
I've walked on the grass
that is next to the side walk
I've walked behind a pair
with joined arms
I have sat alone
im the back seat of a car
I've been silenced
during coversations with others
"well I - " I would say for the first time
"well I - " I would say again I figured third time is the charm right
"well I - " and no one glances my way
I envy found families in books
and TV shows
because I have realized
that I could never form friendships like that
someone be will to die for me ?
I can barely covince anyone to want to hang out
so I form relationships with the characters in the books
I idealize romance and love
in hopes one day
it will fill this void in my heart
and this voice in my head telling me I will never be enough
I pretend my eyes dont glow green
everytime I see videos of friends
doing everything together
I want to be liked
I want to be loved
I want everyone to stop leaving
I want to be seen
I want to heard
I want to be someones world
but that isn't realistic for a second choice
©sunshime
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