I have to crawl
Through one surprise
Met my future alibis
Lost myself
Through it all
Headed for
Another fall
Now some of you
may know me
Well the others
Just let me be
But I am
Coming back
With such a big bang
Of my faltered stories
Left to hang
Whatever we
Have been through
Is never nothing new
But I lost
Something so special
Me knowing you
So stop dragging
My heart around
Stop dragging
My tears
To the next fallen town
Just stop dragging
My faith around
I have to crawl
Out from
Under the rock
Still stuck I stick
I've been a victim
Yes of fowl play
I've found my own way
Out of that
God forsaken mess
To finally
Scrape myself together
About your issues
I could care less
You're someone
I never
Want to remember
You dragged me
To hell and back
Still you're out
On the attack
But I have surely paid
All my dues
And you know
What's the good news
I've taken back
My own wheel
My joy and peace
You will not steal
So Quietly
Slip inside
My ultra
Secret soul
Into my
World of thinking
Thoughts of self doubt
Always felt
Like an outcast
Scared
After all the years
My entire life
Is sinking
Unfortunate
Misfortunes
I have to crawl
Through depression
I say to myself
Hey stupid
Look here
It's nothing at all
Why even should
I try
My Inner self
I shout
Young
As I can remember
Knowing my life
Up and stalled
And it's future
From actions
Of my life's past
Attempts at finding love
Slapped backhanded
Every single time
Never reaching
The highest
Blue mountain summit
And It's
Impossible climb
Like myself finding
A love for
My lonely heart
If I make it to the top
I'm going to stop
Take a deep breath in
Look
At the world around
Because
I know it's out there
Seeking
Searching daily
For my
Life it's deep dearest
Sweet sweet love
Will happen
God willing
I'll try
So today
I'll take my chances
Do or die
My whole hearted
Self set
Love finding goal
Written by
Terrylin53
Lenni-x
And
Freewriter
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