I just wanna be happy I work at a gas station and my location it closing in a few months I have the chance to Be able to go to another one near me or take a severance and find a new job. I could probably get a job at one of the factories near me. I’ve never worked in a factory so that scares me. I have no car no savings I live with a roommate who got a promotion at his job and is now commuting an hour from home to Work, our lease is up in January and I don’t know if I’m gonna be able to save enough to move. I have three cats. They are the only thing that’s keeping me together. I just feel empty. I drink On my off days never when I work smoke weed pretty much every day it helps. I was on prescription pills for years and they never felt like much help. Ive never been good at therapy. I just always felt like it didn’t help my dating. Life is pretty much nonexistent I’m on every dating app just hoping usually I get a match and we talk and then they ghost me I don’t go anywhere to socialize really i’ve struggled with gambling for about year But I’m two months clean from that so that’s good I just feel like I can’t get control of anything my my life
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