God why when everything is going green the you turn it to red am I that nigga that you dred is that why you show hate instead love I just want to know am I in hell because I feel like I'm dying slow and you just sitting there watching me choke thinking it's a joke is that why my mind is filled with depression so is that why my heart is filled with a void and my mental is running low I just want to know because I just got told that I'm losing faith and hope in you so is that why you put the devil in my way so I can be in hell and bleed all over the place well God I didn't know I lost faith sure I have questions but why the hell you treating me this way you put someone so perfect in front of my face but she's far away so I can see her get tired of me and say bye one day I just want to know do you enjoy watching watching me suffer slow did you and your father put the love of my life so far away by just playing rock paper scissors or playing any mini miny moe I just want to know I already got issues with my mind and body because of the challenge you gave me knowing damn well I wouldn't come out unscathed and you left me alive to deal with the pain I just want to know did you enjoy my eyes Rollin to the back of my head while blood come out my nose while my sperm donor was putting white Jesus up my nose while I was on my death bed not knowing which way imma go I just want to know did you put those voices in my head at my head at night so it will give me a fright at night then you bring this beautiful angel in my life not knowing that she would ease my mind and you didn't like the sight so you waited for the right time to take something so timeless and make her time less just so I can lose my mind and be stressed and depressed and feeling less of human and more like a pond on your board as you play chess. I just want to know why am I still here when all my friends was killed with no hesitation and the sad thing is I loved Micah like brother he was down for me like no other and I couldn't make it to his funeral because time was switched and I never got to goodbye to him then right after you took his aunt and his mother only leaving the dad and the brother do you enjoy making families suffer then you got people saying that you loved them most well if that's so then why you didn't show why you couldn't stop the wreck and protected by them so how come you didn't let them know not to t that way so that you wouldnt take they soul so tell me how you loved them most when you let killers go free and roam the street to kill again I just want to know I'm sorry for all this but God I just want to know when will the void go away and when can I hold my girl close so I won't have to let her go I just want to know do you think I lost my faith because I'm curious and question you so I just want to know and if asking questions mean I have no faith then I guess I don't
from a sinner that prays
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