Hanging around with boys that she shouldn't. Doing things she said that she wouldn't. Images become entrapped in your mind. Silent, nobody knows why. Nobody sees it in her eyes, but I do. You don't have to be alone. I've made those choices, too. I know what it's like to have that choice taken away from you. Don't let this kill you, let it fuel you. You don't get weaker, you get stronger. You take that pain and put it into perspective. I would hang around boys I shouldn't. I did things I said I wouldn't and pretended like I didn't. I left my dignity on the top of his sheets. I left my pride on the side of his bed. So many words I've never said, but don't harbor this regret until you're dead. He took so much away from me, but I replaced those things with new energy. Growth that even he couldn't believe. I'll always live with what he did to me, but I learned to breathe because I am more than the monsters that traumatize me. Breathe. Just breathe and be one with peace and you will be free.
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