Years passed,
Time took it's toll,
Memories still replay in my mind,
Your departure came as a shock,
The realization of not being with you kicked in,
My mind forgets,
But my heart still holds you deep within,
I miss you,
I miss your undying love,
Your smile that was undefined yet so adorable,
You left with no caution,
My heart was and still is tormented,
Tears fill my pillow each and every night,
Suicidal thoughts' always fill my mind,
At times I doubt my presence in this world,
My soul is trapped in a cimmerian shade,
I wish I could leave without a trace,
Indeed they say you're still with me,
How so?
Why aren't you visiting me?
Do you still love me?
Do you even know I exist?
Did heaven make you forget about me?
Did you find a replacement of me there?
I miss you,
I seem okay on the outside,
I smile from ear to ear,
I laugh my lungs out,
Truth is,
I'm not okay at all,
My heart is filled with wounds that won't ever heal,
My smile conceal holes in my heart,
My laughter conceal cracks in my heart,
Nothing either than my heart gets distressed ,
I wish you were here with me corporeally,
I would've made sure to always keep you triumphantly happy .
I wonder what you'd be doing if you were here ,
What we'd be doing together,
The time we spent together was limited,
Is it possible to forge ahead where we left off if I'd follow you,
I curse the day you left this world,
Why does God always take the inestimable people from us,
We die inside yet HE claims to love us,
I miss you mom.
M