I am an addict and i remember the pain,
That comes from the use of smoking crack cocaine.
The obsession and compulsion always wanting more,
Turning an educated mother and wife into a common whore.
The getting and the using finding means and ways,
My body no longer required sleep staying up for days.
Conning and manipulating lying to family and friends,
Saying to myself just one more but the insanity never ends.
Giving the drug all of me until there's nothing left,
So numb and miserable actually looking forward to death.
A moment of clarity comes then i finally see,
Life is worth living and that my problem is me.
No more excuses change comes from within,
I had to find my purpose and get comfortable in my skin.
Today I love me I take it one day at a time,
Clean & sober is where I stand with the fog cleared from my mind.
Nowhere near where I was not quite where I want to be there's so much more to gain,
But I can do it I look forward to it because I
REMEMBER the pain.
©enchilla
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