I should beg like I did when the first one left
When I felt I was too useless to hold myself
When I thought I needed someone to be my pillar
But this time around
Even though I feel the heaviness in my breath
Even though I see him walking away
Even though I feel the constriction in my chest
I couldn't do it
I couldn't bring myself to cry and plead for him to stay
I couldn't run and call after him
I just couldn't move
I felt numb
Like I lost my limb and ability to do things
Like the brakes on my life just failed
I watched everything fall apart
I watched love walk away
I watched myself breakdown
Then again...life keeps proving that I don't deserve love
I should learn by now
©humble
H