I still remember your name
When i lose myself in the world around me
I see you,
Looking down at me,
And we're back on that bus,
And I'm that little sweet innocent girl
And I feel disgusting
As if I'm nothing
As if I'm nowhere
And I'm back in the shower scrubbing my skin until its raw
Only wishing to get the smell of your cologne off of me
Why would you do that to me?
I was so little.
I was so alone.
Why do I have to feel the consequences of your monstrous actions?
Still even years later all I can feel late at night is your too big hands around my waist
And your lips on my skin
Stealing my first kisses
The things meant to be my decision to give away
You're so selfish
But I don't hate you,
As if I'm still just a puppet to your stupid desires
I was just a kid.
I didn't deserve that
I know i didn't
You are a monster for what you did
S