In the eyes of others I was never enough
Some people were born beauteous
Precious as a diamond
Then there's me who was born ugliest with a big fat belly
When I had a look at people's perfections
Mine would be building up more
Social media had become a tool of underestimation
A tool that leads to one's low self esteem
I once tried to cut myself just to fit in
The glow of the girls on the magazines with slim waists really pressurized me
Even without knowing them
It forced me to take various slim pills
Adjust my food diet
Forced me to gym way more than before
Just so I can fit in
My self esteem took a knock
Anxiety toyed with me daily
I couldn't sleep without re-looking at the pictures and wishing I was different
At times I would cry
Because of how I hated myself
How I hated my body
How I wished I was more like them
I couldn't understand why I wasn't like that
Yet I had no clue who they were
All I wanted was to fit in
©izythepoet
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