I wanted you

I wanted you.
in autumn sunny kiss of fall.
I wanted you.
in the depressive brisky cold gaze of winter.
I wanted you.
when frostbite ate my hands.
I wanted you.
and you still wanted another man.
I wanted you.
and the sweet caress that seduced spring.
I wanted you.
when the thoughts of may made my heart sing.
I wanted you.
in wet dreams that tasted like the ferocious heat of summer.
yet I laid here reminded of you reminded of the first summer.
yet seasons come and go.
my feelings do not.
even now I'm haunted by the thought of you.
the girl in my mind I can't do without.
yet you always on my mind and it's hurts me when it's not you that I think about.
to be tortured by feelings.
emotions I cannot convey.
to imagine you don't exist even though it kills me every time you swayed my way.
your perfume I wish I remembered.
your touch I ache to feel.
your kiss I wanted though everyone said I was blind.
the girl I used to long to have.
I dreamt of you every night.
visions of you being barely dressed.
visions that toyed with me.
dreams I didn't want to wake from fore these wet dreams torture me the best.
yet I wanted you.
feeling things fuzzy like a kitten just to feel love.
till you were never a distant memory.
I can never get enough.
©darkdeity