It's hard to feel loved when you feel the world is against you
The world's spinning but my minds spinning faster
Every chapter of my life has just been another disaster
I feel like I'm the one that the reapers really after
The one who got away but not sure if I'll live to see the next day
Horrified by my trama and I try to push it out but it'll forever stay
I lay in bed reminiscing from every single mission
I write my pain out cause when I talk nobody ever listens
I feel like they don't every pay attention
Keeping it to myself causing all of this built up aggression
Easily pissed off when somebody pushes the wrong button
Nobody cares, not you, my family or even me so stop pressing
Sitting quietly letting my mind get eaten up by this depression
I'm still missing that special person I mean blessing
Even when I feel like giving up I keep stepping
Then that's when I just don't give a fuck about no one
Pushing away from my heart so it won't ever have to open up again
I'm my worse enemy and very own best friend
It's always just been that way since I was ten
You would feel the same if you drifted off into the wind
You don't care and that's okay, no need to pretend
Cause I'm simply a man as I who have nothing but sin
I who have nothing but this pain once again
I who have nothing but what's left on my skin
I who have nothing but the little pride that's left with in
I'm no longer concerned about my outside looks
Fucked up hair and some beat up clothes
Represents my insides that's closed with in
Raggity and constantly pulled down by gravity
Feeling like I'm stuck in a boxing match with life
Going all twelve rounds but I'm stuck on the eleventh
You should have seen the way I was back on the seventh
I'm going on but I can feel like my legs are weak
Every step I take I can hear my knee cap squeak
My feet drag like they're covered up with cement
Living good I guess I wasnt ment cause It's I who have nothing
I'm feeling something but it makes me feel like nothing
Just empty and cold like the world I was giving
Hand on my face gently rubbing like I can see a vision
Pushing anyone away is a really hard decision
What would you do if you're filled with tension
Honestly think and answer that question
I'm slowly loosing a grip on myself
Drinking and smoking what's bad for my health
I who have nothing cause I don't feel myself worth
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