I feel lost in my own skin
I'm growing older, these memories of my kids and I have did me in.
Another Christmas and they chose to be with their dad again.
Here comes the teardrops once more
I don't think i will ever win.
My sons don't look at me in the same way, since i left their dad.
My daughter loves me, but she doesn't feel comfortable being around me too long, which is very sad.
I'm trying to reach out to them. If they push me away, i won't reach out again.
I'm not a person to easily give up, but there's only so much til I reach a point, I call the end.
Now, I'm gonna let them find me because with all the wear and tear I have aged ungracefully.
They know where I am, they know my number, if they want to make time for me, they can do it that's if they care.
Someday when they have children of their own, they will see how they treat me was so unfair.
All I want is to love them, to hear from them, to know they are doing alright.
I don't want to make this into a fight.
I just want to know they are doing alright!
©terrylin53
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