I walked by your room and saw you sitting in your thoughts.
I didn't want to disturb you but I'm sure those demons you have fought.
Over and over again in your mind.
I just want to see you shine.
You tell me things your thinking out loud.
I never understand what your talking about.
But I try to be there..
Because I do care.
You look so tired from fighting all the time.
Over and over again in your mind.
There must have been a war going on.
That's why I try to be strong.
You are always so afraid.
I know your not okay..
Fighting this disease is so damn hard.
it makes you forget who you are.
Sometimes, I see a glimpse or two
of the mom I once knew.
The strong, happy spirited lady everyone loves.
Day by day goes by and the time that we spend together, will never be enough.
Sooner or later you won't be there anymore.
I will be talking to a stranger and how my heart is sore.
So right now I will say what I need to say.
Mom, I love you, and when you let go I will try to be okay.
I will remember your beautiful smile
and it will hurt for just a while.
But I know you will always be around me.
In spirit, because then you finally feel no pain.
and finally feel free.
©terrylin53
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