If i had the chance

I would have told my heart to stop troubling itself
but no! I couldn't stop the everlasting throb beats
sometimes I get furious at myself for forsaking what I ought should have done
I thought the pleasures I got when I was in earth is what I will get here
I never knew that helping others while alive is for receiving a greater reward here
I'm sorry I was misled by the devourer
forgive me for I turned blind eyes to the supreme book
I said that the content in it is just writings
I never knew that the fire here is as fierce as this
the white holy man preached to me while alive and in dreams too
but I said 'dream is unreality'
I wish I can get another chance
but it is too late now
now I know!
if I had the chance,I would have made amends.
©tunjames