If these walls could talk, They'd tell you alot about me,
From how they hear my hysterical laugh and end up losing it
Of the involuntary and silent smile,
That are more predictable than a smirk
Dont mistake me for a happy puppet, I'm not
They'd also tell you of how they watch me cry despondently
And wish only if they could console me.
If these walls could talk They would tell you of how they watch me bleed from deep cuts and wounds from within.
Of how i sometimes push and punch them just to calm the beast inside of me but end up getting hurt. They could tell you of how i scream when i pour wine on my wounded knuckles from the previous wall punching.
If these walls could talk they would tell you about how i go to bed everytime feeling lonely and exhausted
Of how i talk to myself when no one is around
All the good things i say about you
And wish you could see me through
But you are the cause of my misery
If these walls could talk
They'd tell you of all the late night insomnia i had thinking of you
Of the countless times i cried myself to sleep
Cuddling my favorite pillow tight as if i want to squeeze life out of it
At least it doesn'tjudge me.
If these walls could talk,
You'd know about all my fears
The demons haunting me at night,
About all those nights I screamed for help,
Chained to a hate of some kind.
And you'd know my body is dead,
My mind has been taken over
Only if these walls could talk
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