"I'll miss you, forever."
when your time came to be up
it was up before I realized it
318 days ago was the last time I held you on my arms
318 days ago was the last I touched your soft fur.
318 days ago was the last time I looked into your ocean blue eyes
and before that 326 days ago was one of the last photos I took of you.
oh some 300 days ago was the last time your table sat between my kitchen and the dining room.
some 300 days ago was the last time you layed on that table.
some 300 days ago was the last time you ever ate or drank anything.
some 300 days ago was the first time you layed under my bed.
some 300 days ago was the last time you ever layed under my bed.
some 300 days ago I heard your meow for the last time and I didn't even know it was the last time.
and everytime I think back to you I think about the night I sat, wondering if this birthday would be your last,
if this Christmas would be your last,
if this would be the last time I would pet you ever again.
but when I think back I just think back to the room where you layed your head on my hand and breathed your very last breath.
yet it feels like no time at all had passed.
like you left me yesterday.
oh the sunset that night was beautiful.
time kept going, but when you stopped breathing, part of my heart died with you.
I will always miss the feeling of your soft fur and miss stepping on cat litter scattered throughout the house, I'll miss looking into your eyes and your table in between the living and dining room.
I'll miss you, forever.
M