This hurt like hell
And it's taking forever
To end 8 Months and three weeks of disater
flashblacking on good days
While dragging my soul through the bad days
Toxicating myself with fear
everyday I try to let go
But a little more I hold on
Drowning
And drowning
Into a loss
that makes no sense to the sane
Why I don't smile no more
I'm a mess
With a constant dilema between Rum and wanting you
Can't control my thoughts
Can't control my anger
Why am I calling?
What am I trying to prove
You'll only misunderstand
You didn't understand me sober
So you'll never understand ...
When I'm a mess
©jolies
J