I'm Fine

Am I a bad person for having that feeling,
That weird feeling you get in your gut,
when you see your favourite person,
having a good time with other people,
More fun than they have with you
It leaves me with this dilemma.
Like, I'm glad they're happy,
And so at the end of the day I tell myself,
Yes I'm fine.
For some reason it hurts.
But I try convincing myself,
I'm fine.
Am I a bad person for wanting you,
For wanting you all to myself,
Sometimes I think that I'm being selfish.
Other times I think I'm the only one,
who understands your needs.
It leaves me with this dilemma.
Should I be more selfless,
or I'm I right to feel this entitled,
that I should be the only reason,
you have that smile on your pretty face.
But in truth,
I can't be the only source of your happiness, And so at the end of the day I tell myself,
Yes I'm fine.
For some reason it hurts.
But I try convincing myself,
I'm fine
©jenerol