Hi
How are you
"I'm fine"
Fine
You mean fine
Come on please cut it
Be honest
Open your heart
Say the truth
Stop hiding behind
"I'm fine"
While we both know it's a lie
So come clean
OKAY
You wanna hear it
Then this is it
I'm not fine
I'm not okay
I'm dying inside
I'm suffering
My whole life is a mess
My heart is broken
Into so many atoms
I'm shattered
All I wanna do is just cry
Cry my eyes out
I'm tired of faking
A smile
With miles of pain in me
I'm tired of acting fine
While every part of me isn't
I'm tired of being alive
While I'm dead inside
I'm tired of hiding
Behind make up
Hiding my swollen chicks
My ugly face
I just wanna be real
But
Sadly I can't
With y'all judging me
Acting god
How can i
SO
What if I told you
Yesterday I almost died
What if I told you how sad
I must have been
For I fail in everything
Everything including killing my self
I see me as trash
Not good enough
Not worthy of anything
What if I told you
I'm tired of being rejected
No one wants to be my friend
And I can't blame them
Who would want such negativity
In their lives
For even death has rejected me
Life keeps playing games on me
Puzzles I can't even solve
Mazes that I get lost in
And everything is just pointless
So each time you ask me
If I'm fine
Just know I'm not
But with a smile I'll always say
I'M FINE😊
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
©mara_pain
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