As I lay on bed
Like an artist, Impersonated
To the man who I was once
Who I killed in my dreams
I open my eyes in sadness
Breath slow and lamentable
Laughter of deplorable and mournful
Looking deeper through the bloody malign
And I get lost in Love but so revulsion
Because I'm being vigilant to all this pain
Given as a card to play with
Still hidden behind my teeth
My heart, frustrated to even ask your help
I'm fine but I always don't go to sleep
I have a Midnight Confession to make for your soul
Listen to me once and I'll be gone for all
Some day, I got off of my tiny blanket
Couldn't get a rest
Fearless to slit my wrist
Barefoot, Started to walk
In that scarce dark
Fingertips searching for the wall
Touched it moving so crawl
Sounds so disturbing, comes from the empty liquors
Hitting the ground so hard when I crashed it while walking as I'm restless
Once I get there
To the corner
A cigarette, a cloud full of smoke
Wondering
Lighted a candle
Tears started to fall
I cried, I felt it in my soul
Thwarting and unbidden control
Over my body aside my frustrated and hindering soul
Holding my ears
Not to hear anything but I forgot this voice
Comes from the inside
When the agony itches so hard
Kept crying out loud
Sniffing and loosing my pride
Gracefully ready to die
Pierce, a blade
On my right hand
Unfortunately I saw a scar
Passed the blade to the left side
Went turbulent to the right
Couldn't wait for seconds, nothing left
I have forgotten that I already have had a wound on the other half from the other night Smiled
Frozen and catching tear drops
I have a Midnight Confession to make for your soul
Listen to me once and I will be gone for all
I stay in silence
Sometimes its violence
But it's Okay to tell you that I'm fine
And Wondering how I am still here on the line of mine but so enshrine
©jermiah
J