You know
the worst part
about being sad
is that
you dont even know
what makes you happy
anymore
that happened
because
my butterflys
turned into wasps
when my stomach fluttered
and my hands sweat
and my cheeks stained with red
its not love or friendship
its pain
people say that if you love someone
do something
or hope for something
it will bring you happiness
yeah but you also said that money does too
and i have 1/4
so I threw money at loneliness
and all I got is friends who think depression is a sport
the signs of sadness is saying your fine
you say you feel nothing
but soon your mind agrees with you
so does your eyes
and your mouth
my way of coping being sad is humor
my humor is jokes
about killing myself
which are starting to be funny to me now
I'm so sad,that I have better relationship with my teachers than my own parent
I'm so sad,I joined theater to get better at hiding my pain and frowns
I'm so sad,I'm sleep deprived from all my
overthinking and tears at night
I'm so sad,I hurt myself and missed
I'm so sad...
its hard to admit that I can't handle it anymore
~a.used.human
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