Somewhere deep inside of me I knew I change
But all of these demons in front of me are too scary to face.
So I tried to run away
until Mum died, the voices get louder in my brain
I'm sorry if I caused you pain in every way.
You tried to fix me
when you were more broken.
You believed in magic
and accepted everything that's tragic.
You used to say that's what made me who I am
honestly I don't know if I should be glad.
When you were trying to reach out
I looked away
You gave me everything but doubt
All I gave you was pain
I'd get down on my knees
And say I'm sorry
I tried to be a man
when I was just a boy
I took what I can
and played them like toys.
If punishment is what satisfies you
then I'm ready to take it
I'd give you my body and heart
just don't break it
I love you! okay?
I don't mind these sacrifices
Hold me closer
let's stay just like this
Another moment
until the time comes you have to leave.
C