I'm tired of always being the one you want to call
I'm tired of being the one willing to listen
Being the one to want to fix your broken pieces.
I'm tired of only being enough when it's good for you,
Tired of being enough when you need to talk about yourself.
I'm tired of fighting how I feel everyday
Because you dont care about what I have to say
Tired of waking up every morning knowing that I'm just a disappointment
Tired of being your last resort
Tired of being your last phone call
Tired of wondering what I did to make you dislike me
What I did to make you not care enough.. about. Me.
I trie so hard to be what you wanted to see in me
But in the end I'm never enough
I'm just. The first kid you screwed up with
I'm just. The kid who has a dead beat dad
Im just. Not enough to be loved like you love everyone else who has hurt you more than I ever could.
You use and abuse the fact I'm always there..
But eventually after I've had enough.
I'll no longer be there.
But I'll still be not enough.
But worse than it was before I was gone.
I'll be the one that took your grandkids from you
Ill be the one whose selfish
The awful daughter
And the traitor
But really I'm just. Tired..
©cherrish
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