I'm trying,
I understand you don't like me
I already know you think I'm fat.
I'm trying,
I still have to eat, not breakfast not lunch,
only dinner. maybe that will make me thinner?
I'm trying,
I already know you think I'm ugly
I can't fix that! I was born this way.
I'm trying,
I know you don't care but I'm still going to try
because you mean so much to me!
I'm trying,
so go ahead and tell everyone all the lies I've ever told
go ahead and tell people I'm fat
as if they can't already see that!
I'm trying,
to be your friend but you won't let me
and now that I've realized
it doesn't matter
because everyone is so focused on themselves that they don't care!
even if the anxiety is keeping me awake every countless night
eating at my mind!
making me believe I did something wrong,
but did I?
I'm trying,
what if everyone knew the things you've said to me?
what would people think?
but you know I would never do it
because I'm never going to be like you
I'm trying,
but now I don't care
thanks for your time I wanted to be friends
but you have ruined that chance.
©aloharose_
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