I can feel it all,
Burts of pain in seconds,
Replaying all over again.
It hurts,
I can't breathe,
It hurts.
I can hear your screams,
Your cries of pain,
It hurts.
I'm numb,
I can see only you,
Hear only you.
I can't feel my tears,
I can't hear my screams,
I'm scared,
Broken.
I can't hear their questions,
Nothing makes sense.
I can't help you,
I can't heal you.
It's my job to keep you safe,
To protect you,
But I can't,
I couldn't.
The hospital is bright,
Sounds piercing my ears,
I want it to stop.
I want to forget that you're in that bed,
I want to forget the impact,
I want to forget it all.
I'm not allowed to cry,
Not in front of you.
I want you to feel safe,
To feel hopeful.
You can't move,
It hurts too much,
Everytime you try,
I hold back my tears and rage,
You don't deserve this.
I can't sleep at night,
I wonder about all of the possibilities.
I wish that was me,
Taking the pain from you,
Taking your place.
What if I sat there instead of you?
What if I was a little stronger?
What if I was a little better?
It hurts,
Reliving every second.
I want it to stop,
I can't handle this.
You're ok and have forgotten,
But I haven't,
I still see everything,
I still remember.
I remember the pain and sadness,
I remember the impact.
©sakuras
©starfall
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