I just made it through another day tired and lonely, I know that I must be strong I must not show no fear.
I know my mind is a jungle full of tricks you would have never thought I know where to go just to hide it keeps me busy for hours..
So as I brushed my hair and looked into that shitty mirror, you know the one that hates the looks of me..
I actually seen that little girl
she was staring back at me and up came the tears..
As I tried to fight away the pain and hide my face there was a ringing in my ear this little girl that lives inside of me was asking what are we going to do and I cried harder...
Cause the only answer I could give her was the big I don't know...
I decided i would not be ashamed and hold my head with that pride that gets you no where no time soon....
I tried to block that little girls voice but then I heard the bitch with that beautiful energy that lives inside of me gently answer the girls crying words ...
this one is on me I'm am going to get us through you wait and see so do not fear and hide your tears..
I stood there in a daze thinking I was bat shit crazy then I had this thought, that is your soul she is whispering to your heart you can barely hear her saying you must convince your mind that we are fine that we will walk right through this it's just taking a little bit longer then we thought to stay strong and think think them passing thoughts and then she gently whispered were going to be just fine I promise we are going to make it through it I think my heart took her at her word because she was out a ease, then I heard myself speak
you have not searched deep enough you will not find what your looking for until you go deep within until you search a deeper meaning, until you find what you inner being is yearning for you will be always stuck in this transition...
So I advise you to open your eyes, listen to your soul as she speaks. you have not found your only self and you don't know you well enough and while you are moving toward a better tomorrow your not all the way there yet..
All you have to do is quite listening to those noises that rattles in your mind without any meaning at all and feeling all them emotions that are not meant for you to feel. your only letting them suck you dry leaving you no time or energy for your search of you inner you....
Angela Oaks
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