Here I am with a minute to think about things you see
This terminal that gets into my head and tortures me
I just don't know what to do
So much pain I lived through
This screaming going on inside my brain
I keep thinking I going insane
But being crazy it not like this
I know what happening and shit
This hurt that lock deep down inside
It slowly festered in me day by day
Waig for the perfect time to display
The chaos it about to release from me
Insanity is what they see
Noone will honestly believe
That reality is all it may be
This life of mine took a ride
Dancing with the devil by my side
This music that I listen to
Was singing heartbroken tunes
I was sicken with this you see
I thought God was punishing me
My angry came with hell to pay
But the hell came my way
And the price I paid was unreal
My soul was borrow from demons in me
Death was easier than this you see
The the blood that flowed through my veins
I felt like it was drain
My heart I didn't feel it beat
But couldn't feel anything but desect
I want the last breath in me
To release to set me free
But o xe I gasp that last breathe
This light came over me to see
The amazing feeling rushed through me
I heard singing this beautiful sound
It was angels I had found
Was this heaven I was in
Has God take me
Is this life of mine finely over my pain be gone
Tell me that I'm not wrong
I don't know what it was that day
But my chaos has faded away
The pain. has eased up and I can see
The reason things happen to me
So I really believe that insanity was there to find
But I guess wasn't my time
©tinamarie
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