suddenly it becomes so very crystal clear how ide crumble and fall without her here, sit here as the daylight streams into my room alone it's like a torture chamber, the bright daylight isn't of a beautiful nature to me it's more like hell like being smothered and never dying somtimes hitting my mental limit crying hopeless time infinity to go it's insane how I wait barley alive waiting to just fucking die out of this place out if this prison out of this goddam lie scream inside cry inside no where to find relief nowhere to hide helplessness it's uselessness I'm really in a mess fuck that light the fucking sun blue sky take it away every stupid long day filled with past present betray I can't take it words can't even explain or say please god take it away where is she.
©mr.russer
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