November.14.2018 2am
Trisha M. Barrek
As i lay here
Eyes wide open
My thoughts run a muck in my brain
The insomia takes my dreams as a token
In the past two months theres been nothing but rain
All is asleep not a soft word spoken
I feel lost and I know im going insane
And not a soul is awake no one has a care
That my brain is stuck on play
The stop button is beyond repair
Unfixable completely broken
I feel im the only one to blame
Waiting for my mind to get tired
My body exhausted and drained
The hours before me have expired
And my heart still remains pained
For its been a week since my mom has been part of the past
And my insomnia has only gotten worse
Each minute im trying to figure how ill live without my best friend
I feel like ive been doubled cursed
How long will this shitty luck last
Watching the coraner drive my mom away in the hurst
I just cant believe it happened so fast
It was only suppose to be a removal of a kidney stone
I feel like im going to explode just completely burst
I understand everything comes to end
But i feel even more alone
And its not fair my mom was taken too soon
My heart doesnt want to accept
My mind thinks this is all pretend
I feel like im going to snap pop like a balloon
Whats instore for me I have no clue whats next
This insomnia from nightmares in my mind
I do give it credit for it protects
For my dreams are afraid to what they may find
But i know i must close my eyes soon
Bc the hallucinations are far from polite
They are nowhere near kind
And soon enough the sun will be in sight
And my chance for sleep will be gone
So this insomnia like every night
I must force my eyes closed and go to sleep
Because my mind knows its just not right
For this insomnia my dreams it cant keep
not done will be back 😘
Q