So much betrail left found by my heart,
Consuming,
So much memories and conspiracies tear me apart,
So dooming.
Everything I see and all that I've known to be,
Uncovers,
Parts of who I am and what was done to me,
By others.
So now it seems no matter what you do,
Regardless,
I connect the dots of facts that are far from true,
So helpless.
Why can't I see in front of me something real,
It's unbelievable,
I refuse to believe anyone has love for me to feel,
Its Unimaginable.
Yet I fight through it all though my eyes cant see,
That I withstand,
Cause some part of me thinks how great it would be,
That I expand,
If only for a moment will you bear with me,
Just one day,
A love with your help the possibly to see,
Just one way,
I want to believe so deeply its capable for you,
And true
To show me the compassion i wish I knew,
And you,
Show me i can feel something different someday,
Something Instead,
Of this betrail found by my heart and let it decay,
To something dead.
©justin_ur
J