You want me to talk to you
But you never want to listen
You say it is unhealthy to keep
All of these emotions bottled up
I try to let you know
You act you don't care so I just take my meds like a good girl and hope that another crying fit won't flair like an overflowing cup.
I need help
I need to go away for awhile
I am tired
Tired of always failing at trying to keep my smile.
I can't fake it anymore
I feel more unstable than I did before.
Time should heal most wounds
I should move on it is all the past
I have heard that shit so many times
But everything is still fresh from the first step to the last.
How can I move on when it is right in front of me?
I hate it,
I hate them.
I try to be the nice person I was before
But, I can't get the edge out of my voice
When they speak to me
She should go to counseling,
Yeah maybe she needs more meds
Maybe the doctor can find something wrong
Fixing it might help
Maybe they should open their eyes to what they have done
The family secrets
The exile of a person who never stood a chance
She is supposed to be their little monkey
Play the music no matter how painful it is she will dance.
But what if that balled turns dark?
What if the monkey learns the secrets?
Can you tell her to trust you
When all is said and done?
Can what is broken be put back together?
Just say no and admit you've won
You broke her
She is finally believing she is sick
I am not who I once was
Thanks to that bond of watered down blood that will never again be thick
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