time moves quickly
as I sit alone
in my head I'm idle
I stare at the walls of my mind
I'm talking to myself
untill everyone sees insanity
alone I fall
alone I'm insane
your sanity makes me feel insane
as you talk with no meaning
yet other people's Insanity
insanity that is far below mine makes me want to be more insane
talking to other people that speak to me
people that no one else seems to hear
unless I see other people's mouths moving
if that's the case then there is something really wrong
I'm running in circles in my mind
untill this insanity becomes my reality
untill I create new imaginary friends
we laugh and joke like we are all real
or maybe I'm the one that's not real
maybe I'm not even here
I look at these people around me
people walk and talk
Jaws unhinged
just to scream all of there insanities to my face
now I look at my own broken skin
skin that wraps indecently around my dry bones
my bones are pure white
blood droplets speckle the interior
wait where is my head?
who am I?
I ask the sane if I'm real
they look at me as though I'm insane
this is what I am...
I think
I cry to myself
yet I have no clue why my eyes leak so hard
I cry to the crack of my breaking bones
what did I do to my mind
I've done this to myself
gassing the bugs infiltrating my head
maybe I shouldn't post this
but if you don't see you'll never know
maybe I shouldn't tell you
yet I spill endlessly
spilling and trickling
untill I become as dry as my braking bones
each crack wakes me a little
filling me with maybe a little since of sanity
but I really can't tell
with all of these unhinged jaws filling my vision
untill I really think I'm gone
with another essence filling the space
crackling energy
energy telling us that we are alive
energy that crackles constantly
most of us don't even notice anymore
as it crackles
down my spine and through my finger tips
my heart beats constantly
I feel the flutter underneath my cotton shirt
I put my hand on my chest every now and then
just to see if my crackle still cracked
maybe I'm not as insane as I think I am
as the insanity that I feel crackles unceasingly
yet this is what a crack addict says
I'm not addicted nooo
but I can't be too sure
so I go on how I am
if you like me you like me
if you don't you don't
so I let the insanity that i could or couldn't have breathe
yes I let it sit and seethe
unless you come and take my hand
I lean against your beating chest
maybe I'll feel that wanted sanity
that wanted love
thank you Lord
thank you for my sane boy
this boy that with one touch turns me to liquid
that with one look I feel alive
Naomi~wingedfeature
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