it takes the edge off
The things I do may not make since to others,but it's the very things that keeps me grounded and sane ,like for instance the really hott showers ,feels like a cleanse from it all, refreshment to end the night right,lights , because was taught u don't need them on ,wasting money down the drain, quietness , because brother told me ever since I was little always need to be able to hear all around just Incase, doors locked,I use to be a sleep walker ,still not to sure if I still do , and it's more of a security, meds are because of childhood trauma ,a little PTSD from it all, and nightmares, not as bad as before, it takes the edge off of it all indeed.
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