It's not easy being me
It's not easy having to go through things that hurt
Things that break me and open me
Things that make me so vulnerable
Things that tear me a part
It's not easy growing life in you
While your own life is falling apart
It's not easy being strong for that little guy in there
When you can't even be strong for your own self
It's not easy going through the emotions
All alone not knowing what to do
Where to go or who to lean on
Every breath I take feels like
I'm breathing all the oxygen left for me
They say stress will harm my little one
But how do i hold it together
When there's nothing to hold on to
Why can't I just terminate this
And act like nothing happened
I'm a Coward right
I'm a failure
I'm a nobody
I guess that why nobody wants me
You won't know how much it hurts
To have everyone abandon you
When actually they don't really want you
Rejection hurts so much
Especially when it comes from people
From people who promise to never leave
I feel so worthless
I feel so alone
I can no longer look my self in the mirror
Coz I can't stand the girl looking right back at me
I can't stand seeing her pain
Watching while feeling everything break hurts
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
©mara_pain
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