Is it really okay to not be okay
While you can feel your heart breaking
Into a million pieces
And nothing excites you anymore
The rhythm to your favorite beat
Beats no more
And your dancing skills remain in the past
Why do I feel so lonely with you around
Than when you ain't
Why do I feel so neglected and abandoned
With you by my side
Why do I hear I careless in every word you say
My body yearns for you
But your coldness towards me
Freezes my heart into a stone
Everytime I hear your laughter
Deep down I wish you were laughing with me instead but that only remains a dream
Talking about dreams
I see you so close to me
Feel your touches so real and true
Your kisses so passionate and sweet
Only to wake up and you are far from me
Sad it's just another dream
What do I do with this feelings I have for you
It's painful to love and not to be loved in return
It pains me that I have to fight for your attention
To atleast get an atom of affection
But all I get is just rejection
It's hurts to everyday look in the mirror
And ask my self why I'm not good enough
Like what don't I have
Tears roll down my cheeks every morning and every night
Wishing you'd see me and just notice me
The same way I do
I'm tired of this wishes that won't come true
For my scars are screaming to be fresh again
For the reason why I held on for so long
Is the same reason I'm giving up now
I guess the cure to depression is suicide
right?
I gave all my love to you
All the love I had in me
Even the one I should be giving to myself
Why do I always love wrong?
Hold on wait answer me
Damn I need answers
Why I'm I not good enough
Why does everyone I love hate me?
I guess I'm a broken glass
That no one wants to touch
For the fear of getting hurt
While I'm hurting deep inside
And it's all my fault
I had high expectations
Now see, I'm crashed.
I'm not okay, and it's not okay.
©mara_pain
Life is a series of pain.
©mara_pain
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