"I grew up in the land of no role Models,
Where I had to learn and adapt on the fly and go full speed with the clutching of those Throttles,
Don't get me wrong, mom was there and tried her best to raise a King,
And for that, I'll always appreciate and love her dearly because she did such a tough Thing,
But I needed that guidance from a true male Figure,
Never got that so I was the one to set up and pull the Trigger,
It can be so difficult when it feels like this path is being walked Alone,
Feeling that jolt of pain and coldness as it reaches to every single Bone,
Throughout my body as I try and find the answers to Why,
And how can you let the opportunity of breaking the cycle wither and Die?,
May not ever get the answer to that question as I'm now in that Position,
Of creating this new foundation for my future little one to Follow,
As I'm going to make that promise to him/her that I'll never make them feel empty and Hollow,
This rush that's coming over me is best described as this nervous and excited type of Emotion,
Truly so blessed as I have the realest by my side and she gives me her full Devotion,
To a guy in myself that has the hunger and mindset of a hunter and never being the Hunted,
And that'll never back down with his back against the wall even if the odds aren't on his side when being Confronted ..."
©jamaree
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