just a man

JUST A MAN
I am a man of innocence
A man that time passed by.
I am puzzled and forgotten my guts.
Hardships bothered me with borders.
I am a man yet so innocent,
I can't do a thing that reminds me to be me.
I am a man who needs
To wander the world;
The world that forgotten me with bitterness.
I wanted to escape this small room
That occupies my big world.
I want to be outside
Where I can do things that nobody would care to disrupt me.
I am a man with no millions.
A man with a mind of youthful pain.
A man that is lost everywhere,
I am a man
Yes, I am a man.
I wanted to be a man to be true.
I am longing for a freedom
Away from this mind that over thinks
Small things.
I am very weak for this world,
I am shallow and in tears.
I don't know what to do.
I am terrified to begin something
My mind bothers me with lament.
I wanted to be a man
But fears made me a wall
I don't know if I am strong enough
For this world.
I am a man
Just a man
That lives with pain.
A man that is prisoned with fears.
I am a man,
Yes, I need to be a man.
By Rissa Desaliza
1/26/2018